Dear Period

Ladies, Can I get a show of hands... Who of you had perfectly normal thick hair before POF who now has only 1/3 or 1/4 of that thickness left? I just wanna spend a few moment this evening with you all, lamenting our collective loss. How many drains can we clog forever with all this hormonal hair loss?! Yes I do try to make light of some of the less horrific horrors associated with POF, and I guess usually I would try to be the one who in this case might say: "Chin up, ladies. We have it pretty good compared to people experiencing cancer treatments" which is of course still true, but comparison is the thief of sorrow as much as it is the thief of joy, and yes, sometimes feeling sorry for ourselves and this shitty predicament of hormone chaos is warranted. It really is. And not even just in a "everyone is fighting their own hard battle" sort of way, but more in the "this is really shitty and I have been being tough for a long time and I will be tough again fo...

Dear Period, Once I went to a chiropractor in the hopes that I would get you back. If only the cure was so simple. To be totally honest with you, about 86% of me wanted to go, get adjusted, and magically get my period back. And about 0% of me believed that that would actually happen. It was a long shot, but I guess in hindsight, worth a try, right?! I mean, what if it would have worked, but I hadn't tried it?! I found a great chiropractor in the process, and now I know for sure that one good back crack wasn't what was standing between me and happiness, so there's that. XOXO See ya after Dani Hey Ladies, I know for a fact that I am not the only who hangs all her hopes on that story she just read about the woman going gluten free and getting her cycle back, or the one who just needed chiropractic or acupuncture. The one who adjusted her running schedule and was able to reclaim her fertility. I am so happy for those women, but so far, I am not one of them, and so m...

Hey Ladies. Can I just get out there and say that Mother's Day sucks? I've heard this from a few of you on fb lately and if I'm being honest, I have never really been that sensitive about it. I think that with zero hormones, my level of caring and crying and being all emotional about stuff just totally flatlined. But I also recognize that this affects each of us differently, and that it is way harder for some than others to see moms with babies etc... I count myself lucky that this has never been the case for me. I am able to be happy for my friends getting pregnant and having babies, and Mother's Day has never really brought up any real negative emotion. Until This Year. When the day after Mother's Day, one of my patients told me she hoped I had had a good Mother's Day. I smilingly told her that I don't have any children and her next question was "Well, do you have dogs?" Me: "Nope. No Dogs." "No cats either?" "No ...

Hello! I thought I would just share a bit of backstory on how I got where I am. I cycled normally for several years. By cycled normally I mean that I had four sisters and we were all hormonal and crazy together, and it was the best and worst of times, as one might imagine. I got my period around age 11 I would guess, and never missed a beat till I was 17. I never took birth control and never got pregnant and never lost so much weight that I lost my period. It just disappeared. I moved to Austria as an Au Pair after high school and right at the same time, my period vanished forever. I think I have tried to blame Austria ever since :) A bit after I got there, and right on schedule or perhaps a bit early, I got a very light period, very brown. I thought my body was confused from the flight and the move and the stress and that everything would be back to normal soon. I was scared and pretty alone. I remember emailing my Mom right away, telling her that something was up. My period was ...

Dear Period, I feel like we are a couple of kids playing Hide and Seek, but you have been winning for so long that the game isn't fun anymore. For years I've let you hang out in the dryer or on top of the china cabinet or wherever it is you have stashed yourself, and kinda decided that you would come out if I waited long enough. But my "giving up on the game" strategy didn't work on you like it worked on my siblings... You have just stayed hidden and now I have to start playing again.  But I can be competitive if I want (my family will corroborate this), and I plan on having the last laugh. I plan on winning this round. XOXO Dani Hey my girls! My plan of action to win the round? I guess I don't have an excel spreadsheet yet , but I am sure that the scientist in me will kick in to high gear one of these days :)  Here's the rough draft of the plan: -Get the diet in a good place. I'm trying to be Keto but with some carbs so t...