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Dear Period,

I'm coming for ya! I think I finally want you back :) If I'm being being honest, our 8 years apart have been the most tampon-free, wear-white-whenever, go-camping-whenever, never-have-period-pain, never-have-feelings-or-emotions, shock-doctors-with-the-answer-to-last-menstrual-cycle-question, time of my life!

I sometimes think it's a good thing you took off for a while because by the end of my college career I was eating carrots for breakfast lunch and dinner and donating plasma for gas money.... Tampons certainly weren't in the budget. So I missed you but not really.

Sorry. Emotion is tough for me.... Try not to take it personally. Never mind... definitely take it personally. I'm not the one that left!

But as much fun as this period-less experience has been, it certainly hasn't been all pink and blue clouds. Blame-laying/claiming aside (that could be a very long argument I may not be ready for), this is where I kinda tear up and say that I miss you and that we should get back together.

Cuz here's the thing.
We belong together, and it's not just that wonderful peanut butter and jelly, cheese and macaroni kind of belong. It's the kind where when you're gone, you take my purpose and vitality and essence with you; it's the kind I tell no one about because they don't understand; it's the kind I think about every damn day and wish to experience again.

If you're reading and thinking that sounds cheesy, I know it's cheesy, but you know it's the truth. I'm just hoping that you think cheesy is sweet, and that you smile and think I'm still pretty cute and that you were never really over me.

...Oh baby, give me one more chance,
 To show you that I love you...

XOXO

Dani

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