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Biting The Bullet

Ladies,

Last week I decided to bite the bullet and DM Leanne Vogel on Instagram. I am not sure if many of you are familiar with her work, but she has written several books on the Keto Diet and recovered from Pill-induced amenorrhea after not having had a period in 8+ years. I felt that we were somehow soul sisters, even though my period disappeared without the pill. Or any other good reason.

ANYways. I felt extremely vulnerable messaging her, and all for no reason, since I haven't heard back from her yet and likely as not never will... but as I was sending that poorly composed, spur of the moment Insta instant message, I became acutely aware of how ridiculous the scenario was. I wasn't asking for her opinion, or her expertise even. I didn't know what I wanted. I have read her stuff and know what she would recommend, but I don't even have the balls (or the conviction) to give it an honest effort. Was I asking her for encouragement to go ahead and try it? It was the strangest feeling, feeling so stupid and yet feeling like I was undergoing some kind of great epiphany at the same time....

What it really made me realize though is that I don't take the time to do the things I want to do when it comes to POF. Here is a shout out to all of you women who honestly try and try one thing then another, only to come up with heartache. I just sit here on my ass feeling sorry for myself sometimes, and not caring at all other times. But my apathy in this realm has really undone me.

When I started this blog back in the spring I was all fired up about how I was going to find a cure for me. Then I suddenly started blogging about the emotional wreckage we get caught in and forgetting my purpose altogether, which is GET THAT PERIOD BACK.

I just recorded a podcast episode (I also host The Well-Rounded List Podcast, woop wooooooop) about vision and focus and how to use vision to see today to determine what your priorities need to be in different areas, and after that to FOCUS on the areas that need ATTENTION. I am about to do just that. Focus on my health and my fertility.

I am starting The KETO DIET on October 1st, for one year, in an attempt to get my period back. Join me if you want! I'll have them tested again at Christmas. I will be buying a ketone meter this weekend. I'll have some labs drawn prior to the diet, so if you all have ideas for what I should get tested beforehand to add to my list, please let me know!

Help keep me accountable to my period and share my blog with your friends!


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